fasting

ok so um last wednesday i chose to fast txting. so a couple days after a started a cheated. i cheated twice. so i prayed and asked for forgiveness about it and started over. and then this morning at navigate we had kinda like confession. everbody spread out all over the sanctuary and the band was playing a slow song and i started sonfessing and praying to God. i asked for forgiveness for cheating twice and then i was telling Him that i know that im gona be tempted to txt b/c people are gona be txtin me alot but no matter what im not gona txt them and no matter who it is b/c the whole point of the fast was for me to get closer to God and thats what i want to do. sooo this evening my friends daniel and stephen started txtin me. i was REALLY tempted then. so i called savannah in and told her that i needed her to txt for me. BIG MISTAKE! that was really wrong of me to do b/c i was like taking advantage of my own sister. so an or so later i started praying more and asking for forgiveness again and then this time i guess you could say that i was like confessing my weakness? b/c i wanted to stop my fasting b/c its so hard for me. i kept teling God that and i was saying that wanted to stop b/c i just couldnt do it over and over again. um so i told myself that im basically like addicted to txting. but then regret saying that. but then caroline called me b/c she needed to ask me something but then i started talking to her about it and i told her everything. she said that if im like making my sister txt for me and taking advantage of her like that then thats saying that i am addicted to it. my mom even said that i am to. they're right. i was also talking to my mom about it and she was saying like, " why let the enemy win?" and right when she said that i just felt so so convicted. she's totally right. why let satan win this batttle wih me? its not right of me to just give up. and thats what i wanted to do. she read me some Bible verses and one of them was talking about the temptation. it was saying like how God tempted Eve to eat the fruit and how He tempted Jesus in the desert to turn the rocks into bread and so He was tempting me with my txting. and i gave into it. i cheated once again. but i just have to pray more about it and ask for forgiveness again and i think ima keep on goin with the fasting. after having a long talk with caroline and my mom about it-and they've really really helped me through this and im just SOOOO thankful to have ppl like them in my life-so after talking to them two about it ima probably start over or jsut start off from where i left off.